After a month or so hiatus, you are back in my life. We are talking again, and on friendly terms after I confessed it felt very weird to be around you. Seeing your face though, more specifically your eyes, and I am beginning to believe this wasn't the best idea.
I am still head-over-heels madly in love with you, and the handful of women I've been with since we split have only helped solidify my belief that I do not want anyone else. We had no contact for over a month, but every day was filled with thoughts of you. Seeing you again is only making this more difficult for me, but God damn it I can't help but want to be around you.
I am fully aware that I am deliberately hurting myself, and that there is a constant risk of alienating you even further. But my heart wants what it wants, and I pray to non-existent gods that perhaps one day our relationship could once again become more than just friends.
There's no shortage of great women out there, but there's only one of you. I want you. And I want you to want me like you once did. I want to see the love in your eyes, and to feel it in your embrace. I want another chance to prove we can achieve great things together.